`Friday, February 04, 2005;__
streams of tears rollin down my cheeks...
streams of tears rolled down my cheeks
once again! i cant hold my tears back.
i cant. i jus cant, i'm too weak. my paper
heart cant take all tt .
schoold sucks today. whole class kana
retain for recess. cos our class was the last
to settle down this mornin for assembly.
oh did i mention tt yesterday was the whole
sch cos we sing the sch song too soft. lk wtf loh.
and today is not my day agin. everyday i've to
fake smiles for u' do u noe tt?
y do i have to put on a smilin face
when i m not happy at all. y must i keep all tt in
my heart? i cant take it i'm about to break.
u jus dunt know how i feel. and now i jus relised
tt i'm NOTHING to u. NOTHING okay.
* xi xing yan jiu* so true! i totally agree!
-ppl dun try to guess who i am referin to,
cos tt person will know it-
so if u dun get wad i mean yup is Not U then.
i got this bloody maths test! surprise test! heh.
tt dumb ass set this bloody paper so high standared!
i didnt get a single thing . i dont understand ALL
the questions so i jus leave them BLANK!
i jus wrote 'i'm a dumbass so i dun understand them
at all, i give up for maths and pls dun get me into
anything tt has got to do with BLOODY MATHS!'
with my signature below it.
i jus so hate the subject! i've been failin my maths
since sec 1 the last haf of the yr. i jus HATE maths
to the core. nobody shalll change the fact.
u can say i'm stupid i admit i AM stupid! i am dumb
i dun get a single thing abt maths. my brain jus dun
work when it comes to maths. I AM STUPID and tts
the fact!
i'm so stressed up. nobody knows. everybody
thinks tt i'm the happy go lucky type.
oh pls I AM NOT! my life aint tt easy.
i've regret every single i do, regret tt i didnt
transfer sch in the beginin of sec two, regret
sayin all those things to 'him', regret to be in
this cold and harsh world. regret to every single
thing i did.
regret regret regret regret regret regret regret.
*all i know abt life is tt it aint colourful at all.
is jus black & white. aint colourful.
aint colourful,aint colourful, aint colour.
thank s for making me worthless in ur eyes.
i cry tears of blood.
[[numb]]
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:40 PM;__
